I’m socially awkward. There I said it. Most people would never know that when I’m meeting them and making small talk for the first time as is expected of an adult, it’s actually taking everything I have not to tuck tail and run the other direction. I often say I really don’t like “people” in general, but the real truth is I’ve just never been all that comfortable around new people so I don’t usually schmooze with them long enough for them to become old pals. And some people, well let’s be honest, some people are just idiots.
Obviously there are exceptions….not everyone needs help tying their shoelaces, and I was somewhat more outgoing when I was younger so I still talk to a few of those old high school friends on a pretty regular basis. I do have a job outside the home so there are the girls at work too. But even my work friends, with the exception of two or three that I consider close friends, are just that…work friends. We don’t socialize outside of office hours or office functions so it truly is a working relationship…they are not besties or someone I call when I need to vent, cry, or brag. We have a relationship based on necessity, respect, and professionalism, no more and no less.
As a blogger though, and someone that works in a service industry, I have to sell myself (get your mind out of the gutter) and forge relationships with perfect strangers quite often…clients, PR reps, prospective clients, etc. And I put on my big girl panties and I do it…and I present myself as a confident person who knows my shit, but inside, I’m screaming, terrified, and just counting the seconds until I can slink back into whatever safe isolation I came out of. It’s stressful to say the least. I will say I have gotten better over the last couple years, but I don’t know if I’ll ever be what you’d consider a social butterfly.
So that’s why I’ve never met some of my best friends. The ladies I’ve met on line and that have supported me as my blog was in its infancy (not that it’s just crazy blowing up now, but you know what I mean). Over the last year we’ve supported each other, bitched about stuff, learned about each other, and trusted each other, without having ever met in person even once. It’s kind of odd to think about having a “friend” that I’ve never seen, but it’s also nice to know that people like me, who are admittedly somewhat reclusive, can still make new friends in this life. That is all…
What’s something that people don’t realize about you at first glance? What trait or personality “flaw” are you good at hiding? Let me know in the comments below and thanks for reading!